Keeping HIM first

The days seem to be going by so fast. The years feel like they are going by even faster. Before I know it I will be at the end of my life and the days and years will feel like a huge blur. My priorities sometimes get out of line, which is more important over the other. I struggle to keep HIM first all the time. My hearts desire is to but I feel like I can never reach that goal. Now more then ever with raising a family do I recognize the importance of putting HIM first and keeping him there. I realize we fail. I realize we are not perfect. We must strive for that relationship. We must work at putting HIM first in our hearts. NOT the pile of laundry, dishes and toys that need to be picked up. How often I forgot who made me or who keeps me here alive and well with a family that loves me and needs me. How ungrateful I have become. Sometimes being a stay at home mom I can look around my house and see all the things that need to be fixed or the things I don’t like and I start to want things that i don’t have and would like to get. I find myself complaining being discontent. Have you ever been there?

Everything I have is because of him and him alone. Even the things i might not like. I pray the Lord changes my heart when i get like that. I find myself going to him in prayer AFTER i have acted like a spoiled little brat. Thankful that the Lord forgives even when we have our tantrums and are kicking and screaming the whole way!!! If I just would have kept him first in the first place! I would have avoided this heart of discontent, bad attitude, struggles and the spanking that I deserved!
It is only by His grace. Let’s keep HIM first in all that we do and say.